Dumpster Fire

I am a Hot Mess.  Skip this link (but continue reading!) if you are offended by Family Guy: quote from Glen Quagmire, but it’s what I was reminded of this morning while brainstorming a name for this post.

I find myself in a predicament of my own creation, with a million things on my plate.  I am fully aware that I brought it all on myself, but what is the alternative?  Crawl into the fetal position?  Everything in me wants to go back to bed, hoping for a do-over.  Instead, I guzzle caffeine, solidifying my intention to muscle through the day.

Join me in the madness for a moment:

I am currently reading four books.  Two on photography, one is a bible study.  The other one is the first Harry Potter book.  I am a tad ashamed to admit I haven’t read any of them.  Always wanted to, but just never did… Don’t judge.

So.  I got a really nice DSLR a couple of years ago, and up until now I have been content to treat it like a point-and-shoot camera.  I get a lot of really great pictures,  but lately I have been wanting to learn more about my camera.  I have always enjoyed taking pictures (yes, I am and always have been the nerd with the camera at social outings), more for documentary purposes than anything else.  I have only recently discovered the joy I get from the artistic possibilities held within each picture I take.  I am reading books (Scott Kelby’s Digital Photography Boxed Set and Understanding Exposure by Scott Peterson) about how to get the most from my camera and tutorials online about the magic of Photoshop.  Photography has become something that I indulge in that makes me feel more like Me.

The other book I’m reading is a workbook based on Discerning the Voice of God by Priscilla Shirer for a bible study at church.  Even though my family and I regularly attend church, I have been missing the face-to-face fellowship of other believers.  Our first weekly meeting was yesterday, and I am looking as forward to getting to know other believers as I am about what God is going to teaching me through this study.  I already learned something new this morning while doing my daily “homework”.  I realized that I don’t expect and anticipate God to answer my prayers.  I have always just taken silence as His answer for me to “wait” or “be patient”.  In studying chapter one of Habakkuk, I realized that God WILL and DOES answer us.  In this example, He tells Habakkuk, who was questioning why God wasn’t answering his prayers, to 

5 Look at the nations and watch and be utterly amazed.  For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told. 

The highlighting is my own, to remind me of what God is directly telling us to do.  Even if it’s not something we receive by the spoken word of a trusted friend or written in black and white, He answers us in other ways.  So from now on, when I pray, I am going to look for His answer in other ways than where I expect to find them.  After all, who am I to pretend to know the mind of God?  I remind myself of Isaiah 40:13 and I am humbled.  

Who can fathom the Spirit of the LORD, or instruct the LORD as His counselor?

Here’s some more madness:  I have gotten only ONE of 44 Valentine’s Day cards made to attach to the treat bags for my kids’ class parties.  Why do I feel the need to make them (as opposed to buy them) you ask?  Because I try to take every opportunity to remind my kids (and all who know them) the true meaning of Love.

 God is love. (1 John 4:8)

Now I bid you adieu with a picture of the one and only Valentine’s Day card I have completed:

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